This Life

You ran away from your anguish I cannot believe what I am seeing You'd run away from yourself Away from yourself, away from yourself I've been raised to be, just another pawn in this world Full of hate, full of shame and guilt I swear I've been told I'm different But have I proved it? Have I proved it? No, not yet So I'll scream until my lungs, collapse Don't you say you'll beg To break the spine that you wish you had I'll take control cause I'm sick of bleeding For everything that I hate, I'm needing I hate this life! I hate this life! I swear I'll break my neck, 'cause I'm sick of bleeding My blood clots with a black ice freezing Memories too hard to see, I've lost control of me! (I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lost) It's not what you thought You thought you would sail through this life But it's never that easy It's not what you thought You thought you would sail through this life But it's never that easy You've burned your bridges (There's no one else to blame) You've got nobody else to blame, no one to blame Nobody else to blame, nobody else to blame You take this for granted You take this all for granted Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears So I got my nose pierced Fuck I've wasted three years But now it seems I'm an addict So I'll sit up in my attic screaming Fuck the world I've had it! Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears So I got my nose pierced Fuck, three years But now it seems I'm an addict, but I've had it! Oh I've had it Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears I got my nose pierced I've wasted three years But now it seems I'm an addict (Now it seems I'm an addict) So wake me up, when you know, where you're going 'Cause I've been waiting here for far too long So wake me up So wake me up After everything destroys you, will you fight? Will you stand? Stand up, right now, right now!