Back To December

Taylor apologizes in this song about the way she messed up a relationship with a former boyfriend, who now finds it hard to trust her. According to the Back To December Songfacts, the song is dedicated to an actual person to whom Taylor feels she had done wrong. It is the first time she has apologized to someone in a song. It's rumored to be about Taylor Lautner. Taylor Swift also explains the story behind "Back To December" on her official website: "Back to December" addresses a first for me, in that I've never apologized to someone in a song before. In the good, or bad, or the apology, the person I wrote the song for deserves this. This is about somebody who was incredible to me, just perfect to me in a relationship, and I was really careless with him, so these are the words that I would say to him -- that he deserves to hear."

[Verse 1] I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life? Tell me, how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier than ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why [Pre-Chorus] Because the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses, and I left them there to die [Chorus] So this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine [Post-Chorus] I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I go back to December all the time [Verse 2] These days, I haven't been sleeping Staying up, playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call And I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side and Realized I loved you in the fall [Pre-Chorus] And then the cold came The dark days when fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye [Chorus] So this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine [Post-Chorus] I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time [Bridge] I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile So good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night The first time you ever saw me cry Maybe this is wishful thinking Probably mindless dreaming But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't So if the chain is on your door, I understand [Chorus] But this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to December It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine [Post-Chorus] I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time [Outro] All the time