Birthday Boy

[Intro] [Verse 1] Rushing through maternity We spent like 12 hours in this room God damn, shit feels like an eternity I keep asking are you out yet I know your mama probably want to murder me We told the nurse to close the curtains please I keep peeking, I'm so impatient I can't help it I just want to be the first to see The little me or little you or little I But I was no longer I When I first heard you cry Doctors took you away We thought that you might die All that I could think is I ain't even get to say goodbye Looked your mama in the eye She was so sad She said go dad, shit was so bad Facing the biggest fear that we both had And this is what I scribbled in my notepad I told you I would would spend all my life [Chorus] Baby I would spend all my life Trying to do right by you And I never leave you lone at night I'll be there when you need me to And even though I know you might Miss me when I'm gone I just hope you know Know that I do it all for you Yeah (x4) I do it all, I do it, I do it all Do it all for you [Verse 2] You were just a couple weeks old I used to wrap you in a blanket cause your feet cold I would tell you how proud I was you made it through Whisper to you cause your mama still asleep though Every hour you would cry and I would feed you And I would think about the things I want to teach you I just want to be the dad that I never had I wonder if you needed me like I need you I used to love picking out your outfits Then show you to your mama like how's this I ain't have a job and I loved that Cause every day you who I'm at the house with And you your daddy's boy, like to laugh lots And I would rather that you have more than have nots So I got back on the music so could have lots And this is what i scribbled in my laptop I told you I would spend all my life [Chorus] [Verse 3] Right around your first birthday I was going through it in the worst way Music wasn't moving I was struggling So every single night I had to work late Fighting with your mom cause she don't see That a lost cause what I won't be And even though I know she got a 9 to 5 I still feel like all the pressure's on me And you were too young, to really know what it meant Daddy can't afford rent, cause daddy don't got a cent So daddy had to leave, just know it hurt me a lot To know I'd never get back the time I spent I mean I left my little guy lone And took away a shoulder you could cry on And now I wish that I could fly home So this is what I scribbled in my iPhone I promised I would spend all my life [Chorus] [Outro] Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the lord my soul he keep If I should die before I wake I pray you always see your daddy's face You were my heart when I was close to dying My guiding light, all that I rely in So when I'm weary I keep moving on And I owe it all to Marley Ryan