MEMENTO MORI

Verse 1.) I lost all feeling not to long ago More numb than drugs will ever show Looking forward lost in thin air At least that's how it feels caring impaired So fuck it why look ahead when I'm stuck in the back Both battling my brain and my cardiac Don't sleep for days an insomniac Smokin' pack after pack That's what I do for my heavy stress When I feel there is nothing left Except me and nobody else Pain hitting me come with stealth Sneaking up on me hiding in the grass All the loving words just bit me in the ass Now I can't bear the thought of it Living again sunk in this loneliness No longer at night do I rest my head What's left for me nothing has been said I'm feeling blue but I'm seeing red I learned long ago that sleep is for the dead Hook.) I'm staying just like my breaths Each exhale feels just like death At least how I imagine the feel Realization that nothing is real But when push comes to shove I'm done trusting others and fuck love Each moment chills me more Grim reapers been knocking at my door I guess it's time to say goodbye I've had enough Departure away from the pain that made me say fuck love Fuck love. Don't understand why I'm saying it, but Fuck Love Don't understand this shit anymore Fuck love. Fuck love Verse 2.) Feel like I'm gone forever just like a star Leaving this universe I'm done with where we are In this world looking up at the sky All the pain swells and I just start screaming why Broken down and stranded at heart Unraveling I'm falling apart Not rationally thinking just going off of impulse A headache so strong my brains feel like it may convulse This is what I get for living in my dreams Reality come back to awake me till I scream Real life begins to make me accept Each and everything that makes it where I haven't slept I close my eyes to the same fucking image Wish the first was just a practice but it was no scrimmage All I can do now is reminisce On each time you refused a kiss On the simple shit that left me pissed Everything that I've come to miss Is just that I'm done Fuck this shit I need to run But in my head it won't let me I guess that I'm stuck here silently Fuck it I guess Hook.) I'm staying just like my breaths Each exhale feels just like death At least how I imagine the feel Realization that nothing is real But when push comes to shove I'm done trusting others and fuck love Each moment chills me more Grim reapers been knocking at my door I guess it's time to say goodbye I've had enough Departure away from the pain that made me say fuck love. Fuck love I'm done fuck love. Don't believe in that shit no more Fuck love. Fuck love. Fuck love Goodbye to the rest fuck love Verse 3 (freestyled).) Now it's off the top of my dome and I'm still hurt You don't know how much it takes to not make my wrist squirt Hate my life but I'm open You don't even know how much I'm hopin' That I won't wake up tomorrow at the fucking end Everybody needs at least one friend But they don't need the shit that they go through anyway Guess it's okay to say that all the bullshit today I guess you don't even understand how I feel When the pain gets to real And I just wanna die Well fuck you should know why I'm tired of this shit and I don't know why I can't stand myself anymore But you know that the girl was no whore I just got dropped out of the tree like a noose And I must say I'm tired of the abuse Goodbye to the rest I'm done being depressed