I'm sorry

[Verse 1] Tell me why some people don't, make it/ They can have the hustle and still not make it/ The fear of failure makes me feel complacent/ Taking these steps cautiously/ Not sure if I've been built strong enough for this dream/ I'm sorry to everyone who I might let down/ Like my momma and my daddy who think I'm a let down/ Momma I'm sorry for making you cry/ My dreams are stronger/ And it's what I truly desire/ Seeing other artist love they moms/ With all the support they can give each other/ The birthday surprises/ The stage popups/ I know I'll never have that/ Seeing you backstage in concerts/ Not having your support hurts/ All you want is the best for me/ And I understand/ But all I want is to live my dream/ All I want is to live my dream/ [Chorus] Stop wasting your time/ Go get yourself a real job/ That thing doesn't, get you any money/ Do you know what you're even doin',/ Get yourself a degree/ Quit wasting your time/ You're not a fucking rapper/ Why don't you find yourself a real job/ Why don't you start paying your bills/ Stupid camera shit/ Wanna be fucking studio shit/ What about the bills that I got/ Your wasting your time/ Idiot/ Wasting money and food on you/ Wasting your credit and shit/ Fucking stupid/ This ain't, fuckin', funny/ Why don'y you really stop/ Lazy ass/ Why don't you get out of the house/ Take control over your life/ Is it even worth it/ Stop hanging out with your friends/ Fucking disorganized piece of shit/ Use your mind/ Wasting money on pictures and shit like that/ Get a real job/ The fuck man/ Fucking support, what support/ Do you understand what you're doing to your life/ Get yourself a real fuckin', career/ [Verse] I don't care about the scars along the way/ I'm the coal with time I'm a diamond/ But I understand if you don’t see that/ One day I'll have millions of supporters screamin/ believing in there visions and dreams/ I know when you cry I can hear you every night/ Praying to God to change me/ To make me see the world with a different set of eyes/ I'm sorry/ I've never reached your expectations/ I'm sorry/ That I was never the man you wanted me to be I'm sorry/ That I wasn't as smart as Jezi/ I'm sorry/ That I wasn't as religious as Daddy/ Daddy you know I love you/ From every action you've taken/ I've always been on your mind/ And I appreciate it/ I can't ask for a better father/ But I won't be blind I know you're stubborn/ If you ever hear this please don’t cry/ I love you and your a OG/ I can see it right under your disguise/ You wanna see a future in me/ You wanna see your son in a chair/ With a suit and tie/ Taking calls/ On the top floor/ Be the boss with flexible time/ But that's not me/ I'm sorry that's not me/ I'm sorry I didn't get the job you wanted/ I can't live a life in a routine/ Hating my job even if I make hundreds/ It's not me/ You're sons a creative, destructive designer Who's only desire in life is to craft art with his mind/ I'm just wanting be an inspiration/ For this generation/ Shed some light with a tad of motivation/ So these kids can get up and run towards there greatness/ I know I was chosen/ Some won't see that/ Some won't see that/ I wanna be remembered as an icon/ I wanna be remembered as a bestfriend/ Wanna be remembered as a father/ Wanna be remembered as a grandson/ Wanna be remembered as a brother/ I wanna be remembered as a son/ I wanna be seen as a role model/ I wanna be remembered as an Icon [speech] Life is a canvas/ You do what you want with it/ You use the colors that you desire/ The brushes that you feel that are just right/ But you don't grasp your full potential/ You color what everyone else colors/ You use the same brush everyone else uses/ To have the satisfaction of being accepted/ You don't want to stand out/ The fear of being laughed at for being different/ So we all paint in grey/ Emotionless/ [Part ii] [Verse] Ambition with a clear vision/ Chasin', all my fears/ They don't, get it/ Too focused to where I'm headed/ Life is a canvas got only one lifetime to finish/ Stop wastin', time and get up in it/ Got weight on my shoulders/ People sleepin', on me/ Got a coal soul/ Give me more pressure I need a shine/ Give me more time/ And you will see who I speak to/ I speak into they mind/ The art of evolvin' The fruit of the greatest to ever live/ A legend dies/ Is reborn in 1996/ Heart movin', to the beat/ (bless) Rap keep me alive/ (yes) Waitin', for the power/ (yes) Once the king steps down/ The next takes over/ I can feel it in my genes/ I can feel it/ (DAMN.)/ Give half of your melon/ I'm sure you will agree/ Transfer quarter pieces Thru my pen/ [Chorus] Pull up/ Hop out/ Pull the trigger and shoot/ Only got one chance/ For you to make a move/ We got/ One life/ That’s just how it be/ Cut off all the people who got negativity/ Pull up/ Hop out/ Pull the trigger and shoot/ Only got one chance/ For you to make a move/ We got/ One life/ That’s just how it be/ Cut off all the people who got negativity/ [Bridge] Born a legend/ Legends neva', die/ Stay true to my roots/ Movin', in silence day and night/ Lowkey in the concrete jungle/ Breakin', walls thru every struggle/ Chasing the pursuit of happiness/ Money, power and fame/ Holding me back in chains/ But could I get my change?/ Maybe keep my two cents?/ Diggin', deep within this mine/ Finding gold inside my mind/ Let my riches flourish inside your life/ And maybe you'll understand my vibe/ [Verse] Uh-huh I'm on the come up/ Give me 365 times four/ No more/ Chasin', dreams as I'm running with my fears/ Pointing a gun at my self-doubt/ Ain't, no stoppin', me now/ Life got no protection/ When you allergic to that late text/ Why you wastin', your time/ Starin', at the TV screen/ 1 show/ Too show/ Three shows/ Like that you will never be/ Tell me do you see your future/ Do you look at yourself in the mirror/ I'm thinkin', my skin is getting clearer/ Sensei thought me how to meditate/ Look into my eyes/ I see a king/ Who's a crown for his city/ And a diamond in disguise/ But that's me/ Who are you?/ Who you wanna be?/ A mediocre human being/ Who will be forgotten/ In 2083/ Let that sink in/ Life is a traffic jam/ You never wanna take shit for granted/ People expect to have results/ Without doing any of the practice/ What the fuck were you/ Fuckin', expecting?/ On to the next one/ Hear a thing or two/ You gotta love yourself/ You gotta look in the mirror/ You gotta believe/ Nothing in this world can stop you/ Except yourself/ Now throw dirt on me/ And watch me grow [Chorus] Pull up/ Hop out/ Pull the trigger and shoot/ Only got one chance/ For you to make a move/ We got/ One life/ That’s, just how it be/ Cut off all the people who got negativity/ Pull up/ Hop out/ Pull the trigger and shoot/ Only got one chance/ For you to make a move/ We got/ One life/ That’s, just how it be/ Cut off all the people who got negativity/ [Bridge] Born a legend/ Legends neva', die/ Stay true to my roots/ Movin', in silence day and night/ Lowkey in the concrete jungle/ Breakin', walls thru every struggle/ Chasing the pursuit of happiness/ Money, power and fame/ Holdin', me back in chains/ But could I get my change?/ Maybe keep my two cents?/ Diggin', deep within this mine/ Finding gold inside my mind/ Let my riches flourish in your life/ Maybe you'll understand my vibe/ Cause', I'm shooting for the king/ Ah/