I Can't Believe

I apologize for calling I know it's awful late But my mind's all set to racing And I had to get it straight I thought maybe if you listened I'd try not to lie And anyway your phone's The only one I've memorized It cost me, it cost me I can't believe I tried It cost me, I lost me When the ink had dried It cost me, it cost me And I can't do this alone Darlin', don't hang up the telephone I call myself an artist But I could never write a thing That wasn't someone else's problem Made to dance on a shoestring I scrape my own beginnings From the dregs of greater lives And I hide beneath my headphones Anytime the guilt arrives It cost me, it cost me I can't believe I tried It cost me, I lost me When the ink had dried It cost me, it cost me And I can't do this alone Darlin', don't hang up the telephone Will I ever dig down deep enough To give you something real? Or is this 3 AM confession The most I'll ever feel? I'm selfish, and I'm sorry There's nothing you can do I should never share my darkness With someone as bright as you Yes, I'll try to get some sleep No, I swear, I'm fine And if I call again tonight Don't pay it any mind It cost me, it cost me I can't believe I tried It cost me, I lost me When the ink had dried It cost me, it cost me But I can't do this alone So darlin', don't hang up the telephone Please don't hang up the telephone