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[Plays the instrumental of "Honestly" by Gabbie Hanna] Gabbie Hanna: Hi guys! This is Box of Thoughts. Irene Walton: Hi, welcome! Thanks for joining. Gabbie Hanna: [Chuckles] This is a podcast I've wanted to start since probably like a year and a half and I just wanted to have my own studio in my house so that it was easy and convenient and consistent from the start. So I bought a house so I could have a podcast. Irene Walton: Of course. Gabbie Hanna: So here we are, um— Irene Walton: Is that why everybody buys a house? Gabbie Hanna: [Laughs]Of course! Um, I'm Gabbie Hanna. I am the host of this show. I am a writer, a singer, and now a podcaster. This is my best friend in the world, Irene Walton! Irene Walton: Hello. Gabbie Hanna: She is a baker and also a content creator and we are just best friends and we talk a lot to each other so we decided to— Irene Walton: We figured, y'know our conversations are so good Gabbie Hanna: Yeah Irene Walton: Why don't we let other people in on 'em? Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, it would be selfish not to. So I want to tell everybody what box of thoughts means. Irene Walton: [Dramatically Inhales] I love this story. Gabbie Hanna: Jade have you heard this? (Jade responds from behind the camera) Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool so— Irene Walton: Of course. Gabbie Hanna: Oh wait— you heard it— Yeah okay I remember. So box of thoughts is this thing I do where I visually remove things from my body. So it's- it's start— its physical as well so if I have cramps, for example, I will imagine opening up my body, removing my uterus— my contracting painful uterus —I'll put it on the table and then I will watch it mentally contract and then the pain feels removed from my body. Irene Walton: Yeah. Gabbie Hanna: If I have a headache, I imagine popping out my eyeball or cracking my skull open so that the pressure from the headache can release. If my throat is itchy, unzip my throat scratch up in there. It genuinely helps. I don't know if that- probably a little crazy. Irene Walton: Well no. I feel like that's definitely a thing that like- it- when you're in like kinesiology school, they're like "just imagine the pain leaving your body" and that's the— Gabbie Hanna: Is that a thing? Irene Walton: Yeah. Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool. Irene Walton: Like I feel like this is just a more thought-out version; more visual version of it. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever seen the guy? Irene Walton: Woah— I was so excited— Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I'll get back to box of thoughts. We're very scattered here. There's a lot of boxes— the guy who doesn't touch you? Irene Walton: Yes! Yes! Gabbie Hanna: You know exactly what I'm saying! Okay people there's this man out there who will make you— Irene Walton: He's just like— he's like— oh he's like— oh, like hovers over you Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, he's not touching you but he will make you orgasm. It's a type of massage with no touch. Irene Walton: Yeah. You know when in 2008, when everyone did the like heart hump dance move and they— your hands above your heart and you do that Gabbie Hanna: Irene. Irene Walton: [Chuckles] He does that for an hour. Gabbie Hanna: And then girls are just on the table violently orgasming and I am so fascinated to know if it was some type of weird... Irene Walton: ...prank or something? Gabbie Hanna: Yeah! Irene Walton: Yeah! Gabbie Hanna: But can we find that guy, Jade? Make a note [Hysterically Laughs] I'll have him in this podcast. Irene Walton: [Shocked then Smiles] I'm dead. Gabbie Hanna: But... do you know what your face looks like? [Both laugh hysterically] Is it embarrassing? Irene Walton: I mean I think mine's pretty— I think my— Gabbie Hanna: Don't pretend like you haven't done it in a mirror Rene Irene Walton: I would never pretend to not (Unintelligble) I think it's— like it's not— it's not embarrassing to the point where it's like— I like contort my face a lot or something like it's definitely like a pretty generic [...] Gabbie Hanna: Love that! Okay, so box of thoughts. [Both Laugh] Irene Walton: Okay, so you take out your uterus. When you— when you imagine taking out your uterus, is it like a very like medical thing or can you just sort of like open it— Gabbie Hanna: You just open it up. I don't have a five-blade [Laughs] Irene Walton: No, but like do you imagine it as you'd like doing surgery or do you imagine as you just being like (Acts it out) Gabbie Hanna: No, I just open it— Irene Walton: Got it. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah it's like you— it's like— Irene Walton: Of course. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, so with my thoughts. If I have anxious thoughts— So I visualize my anxious thoughts as these long wiggly oil slick-looking people. They're like wacky inflatable waving arm people but they're— Irene Walton: Inflatable arm-flailing tube-man Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, those guys but they're black and greasy and— Irene Walton: They're olive oil from Popeye Gabbie Hanna: Yes. They're all olive oil sticks. So they're in the crevices of my brain so I close my eyes and then I locate the top of one and then I pull it out and then I can feel it and imagine it coming out of the crevices of my brain. Irene Walton: Uh-huh Gabbie Hanna: And then when I get all of it out it's in my finger and it's wiggling around and it's freaking out and— Irene Walton: [Makes Chewbacca sound] Gabbie Hanna: Unnecessary but I'm here for it and then I put it in a box—put all them in a box, close the box, go on a walk— Irene Walton: Do you tape the box or just close it? Gabbie Hanna: I've never thought about it but now you're stressing me out. Irene Walton: I'm sorry Gabbie Hanna: Because maybe that's why my box— why they escape. So I put them in a box, I go on a walk, I go to a top of a hill, I leave the box, and then I walk away and it's really mentally cleansing. Eventually, they break out of the box probably 'cause I didn't tape it and then they run after me but uh yeah that's— that's my box of thoughts. So basically this show is us just unpacking our feelings. Irene Walton: I love it I need another place to unpack my feelings. Gabbie Hanna: Right here, baby! Our text messages aren't good enough? [Both Laugh] Irene Walton: Our face times, our calls, our hangouts... I need more. Gabbie Hanna: We... Irene Walton: I need it to— Gabbie Hanna: ....spend a lot of time together. Irene Walton: I know and I love it. Gabbie Hanna: Okay so back to these movies because they're— do you have weird images of movies in your brain? Irene Walton: Yes. Gabbie Hanna: That you have tried to find? Irene Walton: Yes. Gabbie Hanna: Okay, give me one. Irene Walton: Okay I'll give you my main one that I think about. I'm gonna be honest probably like six times a year. Gabbie Hanna: Hell yeah! Irene Walton: I'm like what was that fucking movie? Gabbie Hanna: Six times a year. Irene Walton: Of course. Once every two months— and it was this movie that my— So my dad was an actor and he would take us to like his friends like independent films screenings. Gabbie Hanna: I think we need to tell everybody: Irene's that is in fact dead. It is a big part of her personality and I love that. Irene Walton: [Laughs] Gabbie Hanna: It is! In the best way possible. Irene Walton: Yeah, I talk about a lot so like— Gabbie Hanna: Well, you honor him a lot. Irene Walton: Yes. Gabbie Hanna: Which is great like you— I love when you post to your story and you like tag him essentially. Irene Walton: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. Gabbie Hanna: You're like thanks! If you have a good beer or something. Thanks, Frank! But yeah so go ahead. Irene Walton: But yeah, we would always go to his end of it— like his friends' movie screenings and stuff like that. He wasn't like big-time or anything so we would just go to like a lot of indie stuff. And there was this one kind of big film festival that we went to and there was— it was the fun-it was the funniest, most real movie I've ever seen. It was called like... and I can never remember the name but it was like this Christmas movie and it was all filmed on like a handheld camera and— but it was like a real movie that they made it was scripted and more or less. And it was just so funny. And it was just like the-the misadventures of this family on Christmas. And like how stressful it can be and all this stuff. And like... the Son comes out as transgender and they're like, "this is fine but nobody brought the turkey!" and like— it's just like— it's so— I remember it being so funny! but I was— Gabbie Hanna: Do you think it would hold up? Irene Walton: So here's the thing... I know I was like eight or nine when I watched it and so I always think, would it still hold up? And would I— What would I think of it now watching it? Like would I think it was funny? Or what I think it was not as funny? Or like whatever. Gabbie Hanna: Probably not as funny, right? Irene Walton: But also maybe I would like get it more. Like I'm sure there were so many like jokes and stuff I was just like, I'm eight years old. Gabbie Hanna: Right. Right, like Simpsons. Like when they walk into the store and it's like stoners pot... (Unintelligible) Gabbie Hanna: And then the guy walks out. And he's just like, "false advertisement man". I did not get that as a kid. Now I get it. Irene Walton: Dude, and— ah, the Simpsons signs are my favorite thing. There was a whole thread on Twitter about people being like look at all these signs. It was like thousands of tweets because of how good they are. Gabbie Hanna: Okay I want to tell you about this movie. Irene Walton: Fucking hook me up bitch. Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I've been trying to find it and please! Irene Walton: And of course Dustin knew it in two seconds. Gabbie Hanna: No— Oh! Listen maybe Dustin's the lucky charm. Okay I'm gonna describe this movie and— Irene Walton: Oh this is a new one. This is not Tremors? Gabbie Hanna: No, no, no. This is not Tremors. So leave it in the comments of this YouTube video or leave it as a 5-star review on anywhere else. I need to know— somebody has to know these movies! 'Cause I know for sure they exist and I don't remember if these two things are the same movie or two separate movies but I remember it impacted me soo much as a child that I like cried about it for five years later. Irene Walton: I have something like that. We'll get back to it. Gabbie Hanna: So I was watching this movie where this family was super broke. Their Russell lose their house they can't afford to eat; they're like in trouble. And then they won the sweepstakes where they win a freezer and a shopping spree of food. So like they were able to go get enough food to fill the freezer. So there was this big moment where finally in the movie you're like "Ah! They got a break! Fuck yeah!". And then the electricity goes out, the power goes out, and all of the food spoiled. And like the mom was soo just heartbroken by it. And it affected me soo much like what is this movie. And I was like, what is this movie? And then— I don't know if this was the same movie or a different one but this— it was another type of situation where the family didn't have food. Okay now I'm understanding my psyche; I was really worried about having food and money as a kid and that's why it stuck with me for soo long because I-I related to the characters. Got it. Moving on. Irene Walton: Here we go, back to the movie. Gabbie Hanna: Maybe I made it up. Could've been a dream. Irene Walton: You're like, this was my life! [Laughs] Gabbie Hanna: This was actually my mom and I misplaced it 'cause it was so traumatic. [Both Laugh] Gabbie Hanna: So there were bottles of milk; glassed milk. And it was like the last food that these people had like they could not afford more food. And then I think the dad like knocked it out of her hand or something. And then the milk shattered on the floor. And then she got down on her hands and knees and she's like sobbing trying to scoop up the milk. And it's cutting her hands and the blood is getting mixed in with the milk. (Irene looking disturbed) It was just like this milky, bloody, cry, tear-filled liquid. And it's— I thought about it probably six times a year. Irene Walton: [Laughs] Six times a year. Holy shit. Fuck, I wonder what that movie was. (Gabbie takes a sip of water) Gabbie Hanna: Mmm. Somebody, please find it. Somebody please, yeah. Irene Walton: Wow that's the beauty of this kind of thing where I bet somebody's gonna be like, oh that's blah blah blah from 1989 or whatever. Gabbie Hanna: Or maybe not. However, tremors did really pull through. Irene Walton: Hey! (Smiles) I can't to live stream that. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, di- You've never seen it? Irene Walton: No. [Chuckles] so my mom and I used to watch America's Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, I remember being very scared. Irene Walton: So my mom and I used to watch America's Next Top Model all the time. There's on Wednesday nights at 9:00 p.m. And we-we started watching in season two. And so we got really invested. And I was like seven or eight. And that's when everything in my life happened apparently. And season two there's this girl named April. She's a beautiful girl and I remember she made it so far and she worked so hard and she got cut. Like the- One of the last last girls to get cut. And it affected me soo much like I cried when she got cut. Gabbie Hanna: Damn. Irene Walton: I went to school the next day and we had like a project [so] I wrote about it and my mom was like, "why do you care soo much about this girl April getting cut from the show?" And I was like I don't know! I just do! And then I watched Auntie [on] Amazon-Hulu. And so I watched that season again and I was like why did I care soo much? About this girl? Gabbie Hanna: Yeah. Irene Walton: It was weird. It was just one of those things that when you were a kid you like... (Acts it out) Gabbie Hanna: Getting emotionally— You must have at the time related to her for some reason. Irene Walton: I-probably. Gabbie Hanna: Was she being bullied in the house or something? Irene Walton: No, she was just like a very hard worker and she really wanted it and she just didn't get it. Gabbie Hanna: That's-that's Irene; a hard worker, she wants it and doesn't get it. [Irene laughs hysterically] Irene Walton: It was just foreshadowing my life. Gabbie Hanna: I think you get what you want. Irene Walton: I try, yeah. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah you-you've been killing it. I've been proud of you. You've been very persistent and dedicated to your work and I've been really proud of you. Irene Walton: Thanks for the inspiration. Gabbie Hanna: [Sarcastically eye rolls in a playful way] Oh, me? Irene Walton: [Giggles] Gabbie Hanna: Speaking of work, dude. I want to talk about this. Irene Walton: Let's get into it. Gabbie Hanna: People keep congratulating me on— Irene Walton: Your music video? Gabbie Hanna: No, on having a boyfriend. And... Irene Walton: Of course. Gabbie Hanna: It's very confusing how-how many people— Irene Walton: What do you mean they congratulate you? Gabbie Hanna: Like literally will walk up to me and say "Hey, congratulations on your man!" And I'm like "Hey, I have a best-seller and I've never heard from you" Irene Walton: I top the charts multiple times. Gabbie Hanna: I was a billboard top emerging artist like- Congratulations on your man? I went to a party last night that was a screening for something I did which would have been a great thing to congratulate me on [Laughs] Irene Walton: So like you're on the screen as people are watching it for the first time? And they come up to you after and they're like, hey— Gabbie Hanna: —great job on the man! And like hey, that's— but it's a testament to— First of all, I'm happy people are so happy for me because— Irene Walton: Yeah, big time. The comments on your pictures with him are like the cutest thing I've ever seen. Gabbie Hanna: But I've also never been public in a relationship before. So it's— I think it's shocking to people because I've had soo many boyfriends that nobody's ever seen or heard of. So I'm just always this chronically single person to the world. So for me to be like "Hey look at this person I'm so— y'know proud to show off this person" is a big deal but also I just put out a fucking music video that— Irene Walton: —was incredible. Gabbie Hanna: I mean not to toot my own horn but I love doing that all the time. Beep. Beep. That was a great music video. And like I got way more— Irene Walton: No, it was beautiful! It was so thought out and it was so-it was so great. And like it's stunning. And soo many people saw it. And like that's the thing but people are like "Yeah that's cool but also let's talk about Payton" Gabbie Hanna: But I love that people are happy for me. [Chuckles] Irene Walton: Yeah, he's very sweet. He's great-he's a great guy. Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, how about your-how about your guy? Irene Walton: He's a sweet little man, I love him! Well- he's great I like him a lot. [Both Laugh] Gabbie Hanna: Listen, I don't know-I don't know the turn around on these episodes but you better drop the L-bomb real quick because we're like [Unintelligble] Irene Walton: I'm like - Hey! Michael love you! I just wanted to tell you really quickly just in case you heard it anywhere else. Gabbie Hanna: [Laughing] That's the funniest thing that has ever happened to us. Hooooly shit Irene. I mean are you gonna tell him now? Irene Walton: I guess I have to! [Gabbie laughs more] Irene Walton: When is the release date of this pod? Of course! Of course, it's Tuesday. Gabbie Hanna: Fuck. You got— wait what day is today? Both: Friday. Gabbie Hanna: You have Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Irene Walton: And you know what's funny? Okay here's the thing. Michael's such a sweetheart he-he will like watch all the stuff I make, listen to all the stuff I make, and is soo sweet. And every once in a while I'll like say a story he's like "Oh yeah, I heard it on the podcast" So he won't be like "Hey I'm listening to the podcast you did". Like he'll just do it and I won't know. Gabbie Hanna: Right, right. Irene Walton: So like there's a good chance he could listen to this. Gabbie Hanna: Well of course he's gonna listen to this. It's your podcast. Y'know? Like you're co-hosting this shit. He's gonna listen to it. It's episode 1 Irene. Irene Walton: Of course! Gabbie Hanna: He's gonna listen to the podcast and you just— I mean you can clarify - Are you in love with him? Or do you just love him? 'Cause, you can back track— Irene Walton: Y'know let's get back to Payton. Gabbie Hanna: Oka- [Breaks into Laughter] Irene Walton: What's really getting to— Gabbie Hanna: Or hey, let's stop talking about men because we're strong independent career-driven women. Irene Walton: Yes bitch! Gabbie Hanna: And we don't need to talk about men. Irene Walton: Yeah. Gabbie Hanna: Hey, do you think having a boyfriend is bad for— Irene Walton: [Breaks into Laughter] but real quick - let's get back into men. Gabbie Hanna: Do you think having a boyfriend is bad for getting male viewership? Irene Walton: Dude, I think it might be. Gabbie Hanna: I think it might be too - what do you think? So should we cut it all out? (Dustin from the back of the room): Yeah Irene Walton: Oh, I'm dead. Gabbie Hanna: Take it all back. Irene Walton: Hilarious. Gabbie Hanna: Now, we're all good. Irene Walton: I-I was signing up for some like thing the other day about like influencers and whatever. And uh— which my manager was then like "Don't do that" and I was like "Oh, okay. Of course" wait what it's like a it's like an influencer to to brand it's like mediator so yeah I hate those yeah it's really annoying in and I figured that out after I did some more research and I wasn't like I didn't like submitted or anything I was just going through it and one of them was like they ask you a bunch of questions like what's your age what's your sexual like sexual preference or whatever and one of them was like are you in a relationship currently and usually it says like are you single married or other yeah and this one said are you single in a relationship it's complicated data and it was like so specific okay Facebook did you ever did you make yourself Facebook official with people when you were dating them oh I think the only time there were two times I was Facebook official with somebody and here's oh no I probably my first boyfriend one of them was I once had a boyfriend for like two and a half hours because it was this guy friend of mine who we'd hung out and I knew he had a crush on me but we'd never like even cuddled like we never kissed like there was never it never went anywhere and then he lived in New Castle and I went to college how was it Pitt and one day he texted me and he was like will you be my girlfriend and at this point I'm like 18 or 19 years old so I'm like oh this is a joke that's not how you asked me to be your girlfriend like there's we we weren't there very we got something you build up and then you're like all right I'm sending the text so I think that he's joking and then he sent me a relationship request on Facebook and I accepted it because I thought we were just like doing like a big deal and then he I forget how but I found out that he meant it and then I was like we you know we're we're not dating right and then he got super pissed like deleted me on Facebook it was very it was very confused good and then the other time was I had this boyfriend who had we were long-distance and he cheated on me and then one day like we had this big thing where we he didn't want to be official and I was like well why because you don't want me to hook up with anybody else and like you say you're not hooking up with anybody else and why aren't we and then yeah he actually said to me I don't want to be your boyfriend because I'm embarrassed because everybody and their mothers thinks you're thinks you're fat so this was the type of caliber of man that I dated for a while and then one day I was like a romantic gesture he just like sent me a Facebook request for a relationship and I was like I was kind of unfazed at this point and he was like aren't you excited and I'm so [ __ ] dumb that I'm again but like I wasn't no of course and then I was Facebook official with Bo Burnham I just got chills I'm not kidding well do you know this story I don't know if I ever told you no I really would like to get him on the show and talk to him about it he's my favorite artist of all time no me too so one day I I loved him like as a fan obviously I didn't have some type of weird delusion that him and I were gonna end up it was just like a funny thing that I was doing yeah but I made Bo Burnham a fake facebook account photoshopped my face into a photo with him and then set us in a relationship together and then added a bunch of friends to make it look like a real account i catfished with Bo Burnham but it was all you it was a one-person catfish yeah but he was like commenting on my photos the actual him no of course no like my fake Bo Burnham account was liking my photos commenting on my photos and then somebody like actually a lot of PID think anybody was gonna believe it because the photoshopped picture was so bad yeah I think I thought it was clearly ha ha ha seriously I was like oh this is fun so then I kept doing it and the words somebody changed his Wikipedia page to being in a relationship with me so like it said officially it was like boomer name is dating Gabrielle Jeannette Hanna the University of Pittsburgh goes like this is bizarre oh my god yeah and then I was green shot of that Wikipedia page and anywhere obviously it's my prized possession and then we met in person because I went to one of his shows sure and we got an actual photo together and then I said that is the profile pictures now we have two photos together and it's just it got way too intense and then way too many people started believing it was like I gotta stop doing this that's not funny anymore because it now is now it's too real entering like a weird dark realm of this isn't funny and I've always wondered if he knows that because one time when he had his screening for eighth grade I got an email from his PR whoever setting was like hey like Bo Burnham wanted to personally invite you to this private screening like it's a small like intimate thing and I was like oh God like he he knows yeah obviously he knows sure so then I met him in person and I was like okay who knows if he knows maybe they just know I'm a big fan because like over the years I've tweeted and talked to and you dedicate your book to him in yeah I dedicated my book to Bo Burnham because he did inspire my book of course I wrote it because he showed me that you don't have to be like you can be the funny person and still be deep and write poetry and I've been writing poetry my whole life it's not like I started writing poetry because she's go Burnham did but he's one who inspired me and gave me the confidence to put it like this is a thing that can I love his career I love his career mom you know I love everything about him so my biggest fear was I was going to walk into this screening and meet Bo Burnham again and he was going to know who I was yeah because that means you know he's seen everything I've done over there what do you know so that's my biggest fear I'm just going to be a crazy fan of Bo Burnham yes so then um I walk in and I'm like play it cool I'm not gonna walk up to him but then it was just in the situation where we were kind of close together and then I was like okay I gotta stop being a [ __ ] weirdo and I turned to him and he goes Gabby it's like [ __ ] but it's fine oh my god that's so funny yeah and then how weird is this like two days later I was walking down sunset and bumped into him how I totally bumped like physically I know but we were walking the same way I was like what's up and he was like hey gab and it was just like this weird thing it's like I've you know followed you since I was 15 years old yeah I go to your screening and we have a real conversation and then a day later pretty much I mean that's just the universe you know yeah dude yeah wow that's such I had no [ __ ] idea that's so funny yeah yeah I was I was a I am a fangirl Oh big time yeah time I think my biggest fan girl things are him um and Brendon Urie and it was like kind of the same situation me Brennan dude meeting Brendon Urie was probably one of like the coolest moments of my life because I when I got the k-rock hit me up and they're like hey we know you love panic Brendan's doing a meet-and-greet outside of the weenie row if you want to go meet him so when I went to go meet him I assumed like you know I'm just gonna be in a lineup but people I got their last I got there a little bit late and then I walk in and I say something along the lines up and I have it all on camera so I'm like hey sorry it's like creepy fan number 12,000 or something he goes oh no Gabby hi what's up and I was like oh oh my god and because that did you piss your pants or what's up I don't know I'm sure I embarrass myself I I was it's too hard to look at the footage has inspired me so much and like has helped me this this guy's like helps me through my teen years I thing to his lyrics like blasting his music and now it's like God you know me like that's [ __ ] sick so he's always been like very kind and then last Christmas somebody in a live stream asked him thoughts on Gabby Hannah do you know Gabby Hannah and he was like Oh Gabby Hannah yeah she's dope like funny girl talented girl and he's like I met her last year and she was super sweet so it just it was just a good cool moment like when you're like idols kind of recognize you yeah person yeah that's [ __ ] so sick you know who else is rad Oh John Stamos you have a coaster with it he's one of the coolest [ __ ] people on the planet sorry that sounds like super name-dropping and it totally is this is episode 1 I want you guys to think I'm cool but no he was super dope he didn't know who I was or anything going into it like I met him it was like hey like oh like you're the person who's here for social media whatever and he was just so down like - cuz there were some other people who were very because I was paid to be there to promote a show um and there were some other people instead who were treating me very much sort of like a fan it was like I'm not gonna take a selfie with her but I was paid to be there to take selfies with yeah that's like the yeah a lot of people were kind of not there for and then he was just like [ __ ] yeah you want to do a video what's up and then in other words he because we took selfies on my phone hmm he hit up the people who connected us and he was like hey can you have Gabby send me those selfies just like a cool down to earth Zig yeah cuz here we go he doesn't need to be cool he's yellow is he still as hot as he was and he gets hotter with it yeah he's just one of those guys who like he's like George Clooney ouch I just feel a George you know else I love young Marlon Brando a little bit so yeah big time Harlan wins yo him - yeah the way brothers um you know I'd keep talking I'm gonna say something you know that the guy who plays coach and new girl no but you just reminded me of the coach on Friday Night Lights oh god yeah he's a sexy [ __ ] who's your like right now big-time celebrity crush hey town know I become celebrity crush big-time celebrity rush I don't know I guess um I don't know I think is that like a 28 year old woman it's hard to be like I have a crush on this celebrity you know like who do you like what a Mary I just who do you think is hot right now uh I don't know who do you think it's like I'm trying to think is there's nobody who I like I mean I have a very a lot of people think it's weird but I don't I think it's stunning um Tom Hiddleston the guy who played Loki and the Avengers yeah is it what do you mean that's a weird isn't he like known to be very well when when people are like who's your celebrity crush and I see him they're like Oh him haven't you seen Chris Hemsworth and I'm like yeah I have have you seen Loki or what's up yeah there's just like a different there's different styles of ha yeah exactly dude ugly hot have you ever heard that term yes dude I love me a ugly hot dude I think everybody is at least a little hot in one way or another I think so too everybody has something and you know something that I've really grown into because I think like up until maybe 23 24 I had the very stereotypical vision of hot yeah that were given we're like I think in my head it was probably mostly the Kardashian style of hot or you know like curvy and dark hair and like and like very like essential yeah and then as I just grew older I see like women who are a little bit heavier and I'm like oh [ __ ] yeah yeah and like I see somebody who has a little wave issue yeah I'm like oh that's such a cool gap and now I have such a different vision of what hot is or others and it's I can't remember the last time I would even think to look at someone and be like oh they're not attractive for real even crossed my mind yeah like whether somebody's like good-looking or not and I think that's um that probably comes with age yeah big time well because when you're you know 13 through 18 when stuff's like really hard and like you'd you don't know who you like or why you like them or whatever it's happening you just know that like when you see somebody your heart like freaks out that's like purely physical and also a lot of it is like you're watching so much TV and like all the kids on Disney Channel like look a certain way or what yeah and so it is very easy to be like oh this is what hot is and I'm not that into what [ __ ] well that's the thing yeah I didn't think I was hot either it's not like I was looking at all these girls like she's not hot she's not she's not hot I just thought there was a very few select yeah well who were hot yeah and now that's just like not real and I'm glad that living in LA we get a sad story of course there was this girl who I've gone to like a lot of different places to get like facials and stuff so if you've seen me go to one of these places like you don't you don't know the place I'm talking it's not any particular one yeah but um there was this young girl there who was doing some type of work there I don't know exactly what she was doing but she was in the room with me and she I think was 16 years old she worked there was she going forth it she was working there she was doing some type of like dasker manage like administrative stuff but she was in the room with me and she was talking about all of these procedures she needed done and one of the things that she said was a chin implant and I'm looking at this girl and I'm like she was like and I know I just said you know everybody's hot but this girl was hot well yeah I think anybody like a generally attractive she's objectively a gorgeous sixteen year old girl I think the only thing that she could have used was like braces to bring her teeth in a little bit but she was saying that she wanted to get a chin implant to bring her chin up because she said her mouth was protruding and that's why I said I think that she would benefit more from braces because her mouth was protruding a little bit but like could be easily fixed with braces yeah and she's like yeah I need a chin implant and you know it's really hard growing up in this environment cuz me I think I was with Sydney and we're like why do you why do you think you need that like you're you're really pretty like why would you feel that way it's 16 years old and she's like I don't like to think just like growing up in this environment in this was you know 16 for 16 she said she was 16 oh when we were like oh you mean like LA and she said no I mean like in like plastic surgery because she's like oh this doctor is my dad and I was like oh and I was like so did your did your dad tell you you need a chin implant and she said yes and I was like damn that [ __ ] sucks dude because like she was genuinely so [ __ ] pretty and like I said like yeah her mouth was a little protruding get some braces bring it back like you don't need a chin and play-doh need plastic surgery right now yeah you know me I'm Pro plastic surgery you want to get it for sure or whatever but at 16 it shouldn't even be like a thought in your mouth because you don't like women don't stop developing physically until I think like 25 or something I think women stop around 18 19 men stop at 25 oh for sure either way like she's too young dude yeah and I even have that in your in your in your brain is crazy I had a friend one of my late closest friends when I was growing up her dad was a plastic surgeon and he's like no [ __ ] way my touch a new girl like you're perfect you're my daughter you're stunning yeah and so it's just crazy to think that like so yeah that was really sad but then Sidney and I were both like you're you're really pretty like and I said to her do you want it and she goes not really and I said so why are you saying that she goes well because you know my dad said I need it and I was like but do you think you would look better with it she goes I I don't think my face is that bad and I said because it's not you're stunning and she literally went do you really think so and me and Sidney both went yeah you're really hot oh and she went oh thank you like she was so touched as a fast yeah yeah that anybody somebody was like no you're great the way you are like you're really pretty you don't need that so that sucked that'll create I mean I since I grew up like in LA it was always a thing that like people talked about like a lot of girls in my high school for their 16th birthday got like nose jobs or boob jobs or whatever yeah yeah and that was always just so crazy to me because my parents were always very much of the ilk of like you're perfect you're stunning you're great like what don't even put on makeup yes so foreign to me because I grew up in New Castle Pennsylvania like nobody in New Castle Pennsylvania I don't even know if there is a plastic surgery center in they'd have to go out to Pittsburgh or somewhere in Ohio to but that was such an that is so weird and I remembered I went to college and everybody was like oh yeah like we a lot of the girls there were from Jersey and they all had nose jobs a lot of them had two boob jobs and I was like this it was just foreign to me yeah totally cuz I think you know somebody those people are just so young a lot you know a lot of girls when they got breast implants that young as adults they're like I wish I'd done that because it's heavy in a lot and it just seems like I don't know it just seems like so much reaching a place though where people are becoming more and more accepting and I think things like that are like I think we look at girls with small boobs and medium boobs and crooked boobs I have crooked boobs and it's just like you're pretty or maybe that's just us because we're in this culture of dance and like but that's the thing is like it just it might be like so antiquated to say but like it really does seem like people are like born with the bodies they're supposed to have and the hair color they're supposed to have and like yeah I changed my [ __ ] a lot but like it like I think like my boobs suits me and your boobs with you and like everyone's like boobs kind of fit and like if you want different stuff like for sure go for it but there is so much beauty and just like the little imperfections and all that stuff and it's like more fun I'm at the age where I've started really enjoying like my lower belly pouch I've always hated it and now I can't wait to get to bed yeah 28 I'm just I look at statues of like Greek goddesses yeah the paintings that we're done and you know the old oh my god I'm trying to think of like the Renaissance and all of these women have this lower belly fat all of these women are and it was a sign of like you're [ __ ] doing good babe yeah and I think I'm kind of this I think this knee injury actually has really opened my eyes to I don't have to be so obsessed with working out and I to break down Jade was actually in the car where I just had this realization of oh [ __ ] like this is so much of my life where if I don't go to the gym in the morning I'm thinking about it for the next five days yeah well I skip a day and now I'm like well whoever said I have to train every day whoever said that I have to like have this six you never said that and I don't really care I still want to be healthy I still want to be strong but do I need to work out seven days a week no maybe not definitely not like once my knees better probably probably get back to that real quick no I get that for sure I there's still like a lot of stuff like I don't love about my body yet but like you know part of its just like dude let's introduce that segment that you created guys Irene came up with a segment that we're gonna start when we do have guests we're gonna ask them it's called body negativity I think it's very funny where she thinks that people should be able to openly talk about the things they're insecure about yeah and be negative about something about themselves and just let that go yeah well all of us want to be like oh my god you're not fat you're not you don't even know his job like just say it just say like in there's so much and is and this is not me hating on this movement I love so much that self-love and body positivity has become such a big thing everywhere like all over the place and I think that that's so chill and wonderful and I'm a big proponent of it but I also think proponent yeah I also think you should be like a proponent is like a you're like oh you're a part of it like you're you're the reason the movement supporter advocate oh yeah sure and like I think it's super great but there are sometimes like I don't want to be told to love my stomach cuz I don't yeah is that would you say you're your biggest insecurity yeah for sure like just like just be different maybe like interests a little but like I just don't like the way it looks right now I've never liked the way it looked even like in the best shape of my life like it's not so crazy is I think all of us have these things where we look at ourselves and we notice it and we know nobody else knows yes we know that like you know for a fact yeah I've seen you naked a hundred times yeah and never once have I been like Irene stomachs don't like Oh guys you like hook up with or whatever there's never been a dude that you've been with who's been like stomach and you know that I've asked Michael my boyfriend I've asked him I've been like if he's like how are you feeling I'm like oh I'm kind of insecure about my stomach or whatever he's like what do you what exactly I'm like you know it kind of does this thing he's like what are you literally talking about I've no idea if we know that nobody gives a [ __ ] we know that why do we give it we don't give a [ __ ] that we give a [ __ ] because the only reason we would give a [ __ ] is we're insecure that other people might give a [ __ ] but it's all about what it does it's the same thing of like if I had a huge pimple on my face every single person this room's had a pimple on their face but why do I care that I have it right now yeah but sometimes like it's cystic pimples and I know that everybody's looking I just want to get my botox and I said simple and Joanna goes oh yeah it's really big [ __ ] she went do you want me to pop it for you and I was like wait is that part of your thing she goes no I just want to do it like she's not like certified to pop pimples and she spent 10 minutes squeezing the hell out of my pimple and it work yes it did and it hurt like a [ __ ] but I was numb because I got chin injections so I didn't really feel it at all and she just like she was like oh my god like so my perfect storm is coming out yeah that was a good time do you like popping pimples and stuff you have no idea it is I mean I think doesn't everybody love popping pimples no I love it what here's the thing would you point to when you said that she was shaking her head oh there's no shaking my hopping pimples listen part of my night routine is squeezing Peyton's blackheads and that's just part of what we do do you want to hear oh my mr. gross actually no way my old my old friend who I was very close with she had a boyfriend and like you know when you're like two everybody listening to audio all they heard was this is too gross nevermind so my old oh yeah Gabi said give it to me [ __ ] and the cutest chick Gabi always goes like this when she wants to hear more [Laughter] she you know when you like play around your boyfriend you like bite their cheeks and whatever just like couch it yeah you know what don't you bid his no no and the pressure for my bite caused is blackheads to squeeze out this is too much should I stop now he's about to tear up okay oh my god that's the grossest thing I've heard [ __ ] now it's in my head and I can't remove it because I want to keep talking about it because wow [ __ ] har did you and what are you doing or oh my god she's having a very hard time guys I'm sorry I caused this I clean your [ __ ] if there's that much of an eruption when you touch something she had one that my blood nose bled all over somebody yeah yeah like when I was like 15 years old though so like if I if it happened at 20 I'd be like sorry babe at 15 if you nosebleed on a man's face cuz you're making out you got a nosebleed and like I pulled up and he goes I don't remember who noticed at first but his face was covered in blood loving aggressive kisser dude no it's just like I just had a nosebleed but another time when I was making out with somebody I had just gotten nose injections for anyone who doesn't know I get nose injections to straighten my nose and it it popped and then the filler in my nose they've slid from where it was in my nose to the very tip of my nose everybody know when they say pop was there an audible noise like it was a like I've heard it and felt the pressure I was like [ __ ] weird but I thought it was just you know when you crack the cartilage someday yeah I thought it was that but there was just something yeah it was really your heavens yeah but dude kissing and [ __ ] is weird Mike Birbiglia has the funniest thing he has the funniest bet he's like people always get mad about you know gay marriage and two dudes making out he's like I don't want to see anybody making out it's gross yeah it is really nasty it's a lot and there's the sound that goes along with it is very easy I'm not gonna lie sometimes the way I kiss and like like it's it's good though you don't even like you know like when they show the very hyperbolic version of kissing where two people are literally like touching the tips of their tongues together yeah that shit's hot okay you're doing it right and yours like lightly licking somebody's lips Oh 100% yeah but it looks like I think about it all the time I pull myself out for a minute and imagine a few boxes yourself out of the situation dude some I've been having these experiences lately when I'm under the influence where I feel like I'm seeing myself through somebody's eyes and not in like an empathy way but in just physically you're watching a TV show of yourself or something like I can like if I like laugh or make a joke or do something I can see what that person is thinking about it or like I don't know I think it happened a lot when I first started dating Peyton like where I would catch a moment where I'm like oh damn like he just like felt something there yeah you know what I mean it was this really weird almost out-of-body experience I've been having where I'm just very maybe it's just um self-consciousness more thought now that I'm thinking about it but is it something that you like feel weird about I know it feels like a psychic thing like it doesn't this sounds dumb I don't want to get down this rabbit hole because then I'm gonna have to start talking about how I'm psychic and that's just like a whole other box of worms then I can't get through today but box of tremors I'm dead okay so every week we're going to answer questions concerns or just like thoughts like you don't have does that be a question just give us something you can ask advice you can ask a question about something else I can ask a personal question you can just give us a story this is our your box of thoughts oh great so you can just talk to us about it great so let's let's get into the box of thoughts oh yeah oh this one's very sweet don't start very sweet why not I could use a little positivity today what do you two love about each other okay I'll start this is good because this the viewers can kind of get to know each other like they're gonna get you to know you the way I know you Irene is an everybody who meets Irene knows this she is the most pure loving wants everybody to be happy will do anything for anyone like thoughtful kind person in the world like Irene's the type of [ __ ] who will text you three times a day just to be like how are you doing lady and like or if she knows you had a bad night the night before she'll say like how are you feeling or if she knows you're sick like she's the person who's going to hit you up and check in like she's what a friend is she's like the definition of check on your friends she's drop everything if you're sad like one time I think this was recently I think you were coming home from work or something or you're on your way somewhere and I was kind of down and she's like do you want me to stop by and I was like now it's fine I'll see you tomorrow and then like 15 minutes later I get a somebody rings my doorbell and cyrene you know what I mean what was that like three weeks ago or something yeah so like she's just like the best friend and I Haiti everybody in the world does not have not even a person like you who doesn't have you because there's nobody like you you are one-of-a-kind you are the love of my life you are my soulmate you taught me what friendship is you are understanding and empathetic and I could I could go on for a [ __ ] year so that's one thing I love about you is you're it's an incredible perfect person that's incredibly sweet thank you okay strap in the thing I love it's hard to say one thing I love about Gaby because one leads to another and then it goes on for a while but I have never met somebody so so honest and like not afraid to be honest and like stands up for like you don't just stand up for yourself you stand up for the people you love you stand up for the people you don't love you stand up for strangers and like I've never been somebody who can stand up for myself and you've taught me so much about that like like even just like just simple [ __ ] that I'm not good at you're like Irene you're working you should get paid for your work Irene this is like a thing that's happening and you need to understand like you've just taught me so much about like what people deserve and that you're never like you should never be afraid to stand up for what's right and you should never be afraid to speak your truth and just like tell the truth like if something happened like you're just honest and like that's gotten you know it's it's just helped me a lot finding out how important it is to like stand up for yourself and be honest and not lie and all these wonderful things and you're also just like you're just like such a light like every time I know that I get to see every time I know I'm gonna get to see you like I know that it was so real but I just like know things will be okay like I'm never ever I just I never you're just never somebody you have to worry about like I've never like always Gabi gonna be mad at me or like oh is this gonna because like even in the off chance that we did get in a fight I'd be like hey this is what happened you'd be like oh cool didn't know okay like let's watch Rock of Love it's like you're just you're never somebody I have to worry about and you're somebody that I always want to be around and like when you're not there it's very very apparent and I miss you when you're not around and I love you I feel like we really we're the most yin-yang people like worse that we're very similar yeah but just in terms of like we balance each other out so much big time offer each other so and that's another thing we talked about this the other day and like in the same vein of like I will not stand up for myself like all 100% work a full day and not ask to but get paid because I'm too nervous to do that you'll be like um I read needs to get paid where is like if we go to a restaurant and you want chips you'll be too afraid to ask for them and like I would love to do that that was such a weird thing like I have like really weird social anxiety yeah where I just like I can't talk to strangers it's really difficult for me and one time I was trying to be really brave and I was gonna go ask for the chips and salsa and I was like I can do it was like no I got this and then I got literally shut down like I got up and started walking and then I fell backwards onto the chairs and know the thing was somebody like you is you're so kind and loving that people know that if given the right opportunity they can take advantage they can walk all over you because you are the person who will give a hundred percent of yourself to somebody even when they're not giving anything back so when I see that I get like real feisty oh that's that's another thing I love about you is I don't think I've ever seen somebody like love as hard as you do but I respond out my water but like like you love your friends to the [ __ ] end you love hatin to the end like even people that have like even if you know you've gone through family stuff and whatever like you still are there for them 5,000 percent and that's such a beautiful quality that like not a lot of people have to be like hey this person's [ __ ] me over nine times yeah I'll still listen and like be there for them when they're going through it I just I live by this understanding because I remember being that person who would be so aggressive and angry before my own six years of therapy where I know that when somebody's trying to hurt you that they are hurt yeah so I don't try to I don't want to ever contribute to pain it's easy to go back and forth of people and I think that a long time ago I would have mm-hmm but at this point I'm just in a point my life where it's like oh you must be really [ __ ] hurt dude and you must have a lot going on because I know like I don't go out of my way to like cause like pain or chaos or destruction I like to thank ya so when I see somebody else doing that I don't want to add fuel to that fire because there's already a fire in their heart that needs to okay [ __ ] without oh it I'm a writer I saw this really beautiful picture that I [ __ ] loved where was this line of matches we should put insert a picture for video pod there's this line of matches and the first like five are burnt to a crisp and then there's one removed from the line and then the rests are fine and it says like the power of stepping away and it just shows like there's all this chaos and destruction and then like just that one little I'm not gonna contribute to this I'm going to separate myself and then everything else is fine wow that yeah this [ __ ] chills know my sister tagged it tagged me in it on Facebook I love Facebook they should do another question um oh people apparently no matter how many times we talk about it nobody who knows how we met or became friends so Gabby was filming her music video honestly and my boss at the time choreographed for her and I was on set getting behind-the-scenes footage and you and I met there you know we met at the meeting first oh yeah we met at the meeting first but we like got closer on the set of honestly yeah you were just so dope on the set like you kept saying you were so good what was it who gave her permission just killing it so hard like I'm a very strong believer in like if you think something nice about somebody like say about loud so say what you mean yeah that's our met are there any that aren't about us but I'm trying to figure out I guess it would make sense that people right now would be asking about us because the people who are seeing this question right now are people who are here for us oh here we go who are both of your favorite RuPaul's Drag Glee's drag Queens uh I don't want Jade go ahead I already told you mine mine's a little like cliche and I don't care who cares Angela dude she's a queen she's amazing I mean like I'll never ever not think of the moment because I am what sickening it's incredible that is the most powerful moment on reality television it is it is iconic it's very good um mine is Trixie Mattel you lie um I have a trick I can love Trixie so much you will meet her someday I know I can't wait gonna be on my show um favorite Hamilton song mine satisfied but I've also only know two songs I really like obscure ones like guns and chips because I'm such a theatrical person and I love like the dramatics and theatrics of things so like I love guns and ships cuz I love when like laughing it's like I'm thinking this horse by the reins we could redcoats ready with blond saints okay I love that and then the one me not [ __ ] what's the one J Charles Lee he's like Lee do you yield you shot him in the side yes he yields that one I'm [ __ ] obsessed with and then Washington's like uh let it my name's been through enough or something and he's like don't do a thing let history prove him wrong I got a whole like conversational thing I'm just so into them you know everybody is a musical of people doing a musical but just by memory is like oh you know what he's like talented yeah what's our favorite thing to do together sit and talk yeah you know it was one of my favorite friendship moments of you where like I felt so close to you we went to this event and it was like kind of boring and we just sat on the lawn and like talked and it was like a kind of a you know who cares like cares if we want or didn't and on the way home I was like I was kind of boring and you're like yeah but like I got to sit and talk to you on the lawn so like you know we could have done on your couch and we did a lot of lanzi somewhere else it was like damn that's what friendship is because I think I'm used to being in a position where I feel like I need to be like cool or funny or exciting and like I'm always like I brought them to this thing it was boring and just hearing somebody be like I came for you I didn't come for a cool event I came for you I was like damn and now that's like one of my favorite memories with you is like sitting on that lawn just like talking cuz it woke me up to what a real friend is you know oh yeah I you that's what you deserve because you're a great friend you make me want to be a better friend it's dude just lost all of our subscribers so everyone's like made this ooh okay go to lazy day movies I'm not that [ __ ] I'm that [ __ ] when I watch a movie I watched it and I won't watch it again for ten years that's crazy yeah what's yours for me like a lazy day movie as a movie I don't have to like pay too much attention to so it is when I've seen before so probably like Young Frankenstein in our Blazing Saddles mm-hmm I think when like I don't I I've recently learned that I'm a workaholic and I'm working on it that's another thing with working out some work very funny where I just realized like oh life isn't about work and I just always felt guilty taking a minute to like watch TV like you would not catch me watching a TV show the only time I would watch TV is if I was like illustrating my book and needed something in the background like I would never just be like I want to spend the day watching TV so I think when I'm watching a movie it's like okay I've been dying to see this movie sure what is it yeah I feel like I only ever hear you talk about movies if you saw it in a theater yeah I don't really you don't like throw on a movie no not really all right yeah you're working on it um best piece of advice for a 19 year old not knowing anything you have no idea who you are it's like if there's one thing you don't know it's who you are and get ready to forgive yourself in 10 years for everything you're about cause you're gonna [ __ ] suck for a minute that's a really good one um I I would say just don't care as much about stuff like Oh your partner didn't come - it was late to dinner like okay truly nothing matters yeah like there's there there should be five to ten things that are incredibly important to you and matter a lot and if they get [ __ ] with then that's an issue but a lot of other stuff like there's so much that can just be let go yeah like oh oh I miss I missed the meeting okay well fine like it's like there's just so much [ __ ] that doesn't matter definitely don't encourage people to miss their media sure Cody if something happens most of the time it can be like chill des just like let it go okay this best and worst gift ever received but I feel like this is always a very hard question because you have to go through every [ __ ] gifts you've ever given and/or gotten you go first what just because I was just talking about this yesterday I'll tell you the worst gift I've ever given okay it was to my horrible boyfriend that I had when I was 23 years old and it was like our one-year anniversary and I knew I was gonna break up with him in like a couple days but I was like I can't not give him something yeah so so he had like a bunch of remotes for his TV and so there was like a TV one a stereo one an Apple remote and like a bunch of stuff and like he was always losing all of them [Laughter] organize ur Bike Works I went to Michael's and I got the store and I got like a wooden box and I painted it and I wrote four remotes again for what you know what's a wooden box it said for there's the worst gift I've ever used wow that's really good you know it's funny Taylor recently I was at her she had just moved to a new apartment Hermosa and her screen door like it's like this beach apartment and she has a screen door that she had like this little weird wire homemade makeshift latch that you could like latch it to this thing to keep it open and it was like this it was kind of like a struggle and kind of janky whatever and she was unpacking and she pulled out this like beanbag with like a handle that had a bird on it basically is what it was and she goes oh my god I can't believe I haven't bothered to move this with me like this is the worst gift I've ever gotten my ex-boyfriend is so bad at gifts this is a [ __ ] doorstop and she was like this is the worst book she was about to throw it away and then she goes oh oh my god and then she would open the door we had just had this conversation about how it was so hard to keep the door oh but it she was like oh my god this actually like I'm a pretty epic gift giver though you're a very holy [ __ ] what is so cramped because what I do is I have a notes in my phone for everybody I know look at what it is anyway know I've enlisted my phone for everybody in my life and every time they like mention something I'm like I gotta make a note of that so then when it's time for gifts I'm not trying to think of a gift it's like oh I was like in the store with Irene and she pointed this out and now I know that that is something that she likes it's a great tip yeah it's a really good tip actually because I that's why I'm an epic gift-giving is that for people to bake for oh nice yeah yeah like of things they've said that every yeah yeah that's a good one okay what is your go-to song to play right now evening I will not forget by Dermot Kennedy uh this evening Gavin laughing oh that one you sent me that's so beautiful yeah that one's so good um mine is Oh welcome to the family by Watsky it's so good oh yeah hey you want to know how [ __ ] Taipei I am yeah I don't even like listen to music for enjoyment like when I'm driving I need to put on music I'm playing my demos because I'm like making notes of like I need to do this and this and some just like unwind man I need to go on a vacation with you fun yeah um oh do you and I have the same taste in men you love my man I don't know I I mean I don't have like a particular type it's changed over the years like I just like like good funny I like a nice man I like very manly man I don't even need that I just need you to like my dating life got so bad for a minute that my type was just honest please don't lie to me not even I you just be honest but I really hit the jackpot online which is nice is Gabby's knee better getting there oh yeah how are we doing we're doing [ __ ] great we are you doing great I'm great I I don't know if I could like feel better actually okay I like went to bed like happiest how like I was so happy last night that I stayed up till 4:00 a.m. because I didn't want to waste how happy I was oh that's how [ __ ] happy I was and then I woke up this morning I was like I really don't want to be away it really would be nice to go and I was grumpy and now I'm happy um do you believe in star signs is that just like astrological stuff my ex was a Gemini and now I do we I think it's probably good yeah yeah it's really answered quite a bit of the box of thoughts you can ask us questions give us your questions your thoughts advice things you want to know things you just want to unload let us know if you want to be anonymous you can do all of that on our socials which will be I guess what are they still figuring it out sure right now the YouTube channel is here's the problem with the Twitter handle is there's no way to abbreviate it to make it not weird is it too long yeah so like Bo T underscore pod is taken box of thoughts HOH is the only thing you can't say put the D because there's too many letters so we're having a trouble finding the the Twitter handle oh sure for now go to the YouTube channel box of thoughts it'll be linked from my again I guess my channel would be the easiest way to find it just yeah unless you can find it box thoughts it's everywhere 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